There are so many things that we don’t understand, that we can’t understand. We question God on His ability. We question His motives. We say things like, if God is real why would this thing or that thing happen?
A few years back I receive some devastating news that one of my dearest friends, a very godly woman had pancreatic cancer. She told me that pancreatic cancer had a 3 percent chance of survival. We were positive that she would be one of those 3 percent. God surely would not take her from the earth knowing that she had an autistic child. We prayed, we believed and we absolutely new that the sovereign God of the universe would see things our way. He didn’t and I was devastated.
I buried some of my faith with my friend. It wouldn’t be long before my father was hospitalized in a coma. I didn’t have the faith to pray. I wished but I did not pray. One evening I was allowed the rare opportunity to be alone with my father. The doctor walked in the room and he asked me a question. He said, “Hope, what do you think about this?” I thought for a moment and I remember the words coming out of my mouth but there was no thought behind it. I said, “I know that if my father were not to make it out of this, he would not go to heaven.” When the doctor turned around and left the room I took my father’s hand and for the first time in a long time I began to pray. God gave me what I asked of Him. My father is alive today and it is a saved man.
At that moment in my life I truly realized that God is sovereign; that God can do what He wants, when He wants and how He wants. He answers to no one; not out of the spirit of rudness but out of the spirit of knowledge.
I believe it is wise not to question God. When we continue to ask why, to argue and to move in our own supremacy God may decide to sit us down and ask the questions that He asked Job.
Job 38:1-13 NKJV
Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind, and said: “Who is this who darkens counsel By words without knowledge? Now prepare yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer Me. “Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell Me, if you have understanding. Who determined its measurements? Surely you know! Or who stretched the line upon it? To what were its foundations fastened? Or who laid its cornerstone, When the morning stars sang together, And all the sons of God shouted for joy? “Or who shut in the sea with doors, When it burst forth and issued from the womb; When I made the clouds its garment, And thick darkness its swaddling band; When I fixed My limit for it, And set bars and doors; When I said, ‘This far you may come, but no farther, And here your proud waves must stop!’ “Have you commanded the morning since your days began, And caused the dawn to know its place, That it might take hold of the ends of the earth, And the wicked be shaken out of it?
I can’t answer these questions so I dare not ask simpler ones.
I do not wish for God to appear to me out of a whirlwind. I choose to trust God in His infinite wisdom even when I don’t understand for He is God and I am NOT. The Ancient of Days owes me no explanation. When He appears to me in all of His glory I will scarcely be able to take it all in. Until then Daniel 7 shares a glimpse. Enjoy
Daniel 7:9-10 NKJV
“I watched till thrones were put in place, And the Ancient of Days was seated; His garment was white as snow, And the hair of His head was like pure wool. His throne was a fiery flame, Its wheels a burning fire; A fiery stream issued And came forth from before Him. A thousand thousands ministered to Him; Ten thousand times ten thousand stood before Him. The court was seated, And the books were opened.