This journey that I’m on never ends. I get through one situation and find peace and healing only to enter into a new journey at the next turn. That doesn’t sound too bad except that I wasn’t looking for a ‘me’ journey.I am shocked to have to surrender this secret..I have kept it buried for so very long.
I spent the best part of 2012 mad at my circumstance and lumping coals on the heads of the people who caused it. We are all glad I’m not God. I woke up one day in January and took a good long look (2 days) at me and realized that I had became exactly what I dislike, toxic, I decided that I would take my own advice, figure out what is wrong and change it!
Days turn into months, working this out and then that…on April 22, 2013 I ended up at a ladies luncheon. I was feeling some pretty thick déjà vu. I walked in the door, very apprehensive, and was immediately greeted by a voice from my past, and then another one. At this point I am having a little trouble breathing because one of these ladies knows too much. But, I am comforted because the ONE who sent me is always with me.
Now, lets talk about the word intentional for a moment. This word ‘intentional’ pops into my head frequently. I chalk it up to something I need to work on. As I wander through this journey, I begin to realize this is not circumstance, all of these crazy circumstances are intentional. I know that I was lead to this meeting for a very ‘intentional’ reason.
I had no idea the reason was me! To my shock most of the women in this meeting were familiar with my secret because they too once guarded the same secret, or maybe they still do. The luncheon was not to recruit me to volunteer as I had imagined. The luncheon instead was intended to speak to women about a particular secret that many of us keep.
The persons who put this luncheon together remind me of a very special shepherd that I know. She seeks out those who are hurting and lost and gently brings them back home to the Loving Shepherd who cares to heal their hurts. Comparing myself to a lost sheep I didn’t even know that I was hurt or lost in this secret. But I am and today, May 6,2013, I started my healing journey.
Imagine my surprise when the Daily Prompt was EVASIVE ACTION: the most significant secret. I think that was intentional! I have held this secret for 25 years. I am ready to Surrender The Secret.