Keep pushing until you break through:
Some times we don’t Know what to do or how to do it. We only know after a while that we were doing it wrong. Do we quit or do it a new way? Is it the right way? Who knows? It may be completely wrong or maybe it’s right for now. There is no way to know.we are left to trust the one who does know. Jesus.
I was left thinking that He left me. I felt alone. Really alone, no friends, no family, nowhere to go when you want to run away on a Monday night. I know he is their because I know that I know that he never leaves me but he was silent.
So then how did I know to let her go back. I made a plan. When I would enroll her, getting her school clothes, sending her off and waiting for her to come home..was that all my genius mind?? No it was the Holy Spirit directing me..but my mind was still in an ugly defeated place,,I’m going to send her walking.I’m not going up to the school…..blablabla.. What kind of love does that show? When did I stop being a fighter? That’s what I do. I fight! I will always fight for her because I love her with everything that I am.
I’m going to do what I am called to do and I’m going to make sure she feels my love. Mothers know what to do, its natural. We love, we carpool, we clean,cook….it’s natural.
Occasionally I do it wrong. But I will keep doing it! Hopefully right:)